Recently I watched a video called I am I must. It was an amazing video. I am a child of God and I MUST fulfill His purpose for my life. How do we know what's God's purpose for our life is? I'll share my story and how I found God's purpose for my life.
Ever since I was little I always wanted to be a teacher. Teaching was my passion. As I got older I wanted to go to college and open up a Christian based preschool. In 9th grade I took the CPT and didn't pass. I was like that's okay, next year I'll pass. Well next year came and I didn't pass. And the end of that year I took it again and didn't pass. At this point I was feeling like a huge disappointment. And hopeless. Everyone was praying for me that I would have wisdom and would pass. So three times down.. One more to go. Didn't pass that time either. Okay.. Talk about really hopeless! Instead of getting mad at myself for in my eyes "failing" I decided to pray. Around the same time a missionary came to our church and spoke. It touched my heart how God was using her to reach kids and give them a safe house. Right before she came and spoke,God laid missionary on my heart. Like a few days after I failed for the fourth time. Looking back, I couldn't even tell you why it was laid on my heart ( oh because of God ;)) lol
So when God lays something so heavily on your heart, PRAY! Don't tell anyone.. Pray! Pray for conformation. That's exactly what I did. I always like to include a number of times for conformation. Usually 3 times. 3 times He did! During this time I was in the school of leaders in my church. It was a wednesday night and the lesson was about prayer. We got to pair up in groups of three to pray. I right away said I want Mrs. Wendy and Mrs. Barb! Remember I still haven't told anyone I wanted to do missionary. So I just told them to pray for guidance for my future. And they were praying and at the same time said missionary. My jaw dropped. One.. Two.. Three. It was confirmed.
There's so many things you have to do to prepare to be a missionary. I'm working on that to do list! Growing and becoming all God wants me to be before I start missions.
My passion for missions has never changed. The fire in my heart for it never goes away. That's how I know it's my MUST in my life.
There's a few must in my life like this one. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vlv5vyWF2rI&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Saturday, August 18, 2012
The Greater the Opposition, the Greater the Opportunity
Every time God puts a fresh new idea in our hearts or gives us a dream, vision or new challenge for our lives, the enemy will be there to oppose us.
God constantly calls us to new levels. Some seem big and important; others seem relatively small or insignificant. Whatever the case, when we reach a new level with God, we will face a new level of opposition from our enemy, the devil.
Along with opposition, however, comes opportunity, but God is always with us, and we have no need to fear. Some things may seem too great for us, but nothing is impossible with God. He is not surprised or frightened by anything, and with Him, we can accomplish any challenge set before us.
If you are determined to reach the new levels God is calling you to, then don't give up in the face of opposition. Instead, realize that the greater the opposition, the greater the opportunity in front of you. Be courageous, and draw boldness and courage from the Holy Spirit, for He is always with you.
Prayer Starter: God, don't let me falter in the face of opposition. I know that You have great plans for me and great opposition only means a greater opportunity. I trust You and I know that You can take me to new levels.
Every time God puts a fresh new idea in our hearts or gives us a dream, vision or new challenge for our lives, the enemy will be there to oppose us.
God constantly calls us to new levels. Some seem big and important; others seem relatively small or insignificant. Whatever the case, when we reach a new level with God, we will face a new level of opposition from our enemy, the devil.
Along with opposition, however, comes opportunity, but God is always with us, and we have no need to fear. Some things may seem too great for us, but nothing is impossible with God. He is not surprised or frightened by anything, and with Him, we can accomplish any challenge set before us.
If you are determined to reach the new levels God is calling you to, then don't give up in the face of opposition. Instead, realize that the greater the opposition, the greater the opportunity in front of you. Be courageous, and draw boldness and courage from the Holy Spirit, for He is always with you.
Prayer Starter: God, don't let me falter in the face of opposition. I know that You have great plans for me and great opposition only means a greater opportunity. I trust You and I know that You can take me to new levels.
Friday, August 17, 2012
Dealing with things the right way..
I've been struggling with my new cell group lately. I've been trying to deal with it the best I can with God helping me. Trying to fit in and just be myself. Being yourself means others will have a problem with that. But no one is perfect and we all have our corks about us. Last week at cell group it was good. I didn't feel like I belonged though. But I do and my life matters. Yesterday I had to say okay God, who's teaching tonight like to talk about about herself. (Pastor's wife wasn't there to teach:( ) Please help me set aside all my feelings and get something out of tonight. I was fine the whole night. I didn't feel alone. I got something out of the message. Then we were sitting around talking and it got brought up about how many pictures I post on instagram. And the remarks and comments started to fly! That makes it twice now this week that me posting to many pictures were brought up. There was so many emotions that were running through me. I was mad,upset, wanted to cry. I just said Fine if you don't like how many I post then unfollow me. I don't care. Later my sister was like oh Hannah we were just joking. But that was after the fact she saw how hurt I was. Okay.. Joking. You say it once. Not joking.. You keep on saying it. I mean when you have comments like oh yeah if you ever want to know what Hannah ate or is doing.. Check Instagram. Or oh I bet she couldn't go without a day without posting.. Oh she would just post all the pictures Saturday that she took Friday. Really... What does it matter how many pictures I take!? Is it hurting you? Nope. Didn't think so.
Anyways.. Last night I came home and took a shower and cried and prayed. You know, I hate being mad and upset with people. It kills me inside. I really had to ask God for His help. Because I could have went around and said well you talk to much about yourself. You blah blah blah. But God really helped me to keep my mouth shut. If I'm upset and need to deal with it, I just need to be alone for a while. In my house there's no chance of being alone and dealing with things on your own. Everyone had to put there input in. (and yea I'm still kind of dealing with what happened)
So this morning my daily bible verse is:Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. (Galatians 1:10 NIV)
I would say so weird but nothing is weird when you have God on your side! So instead this is a So God moment! So now I sit and say okay God. I get it! Your testing me to see who am I going to please! Like last night when I got home I deleted instagram off my phone. That was to get people's approval. If I'm doing things right and living my life for God then that's all that matters. In the bible it doesn't say anywhere that it's a sin to take so many photos. It doesn't say thy shall only post a photo a day. But it does say thy shall love their neighbor. And part of loving is understanding. Understanding someone means getting to know them. And if you see a comment you made hurt someone, don't keep making the same comment. Know where they are coming from. I post so many pictures for a certain reason. No know has to know why I do what I do. They just have to know that everything I do is for a reason. There is always a madness to my methods. Lol
Oh and thank you to my two friends who didn't join in the bashing Hannah last night and who said they liked my photos. I love you! :)
Key points:
Seek God's approval and not men.
Don't be a people pleaser.
Always pray.
Clam down before you speak.
Don't change yourself to get humans approval, if you do something for a reason and it's not hurting God or you, your fine. :)
LOVE everyone for who they are. :)
Craziness and all. ;)
I've been struggling with my new cell group lately. I've been trying to deal with it the best I can with God helping me. Trying to fit in and just be myself. Being yourself means others will have a problem with that. But no one is perfect and we all have our corks about us. Last week at cell group it was good. I didn't feel like I belonged though. But I do and my life matters. Yesterday I had to say okay God, who's teaching tonight like to talk about about herself. (Pastor's wife wasn't there to teach:( ) Please help me set aside all my feelings and get something out of tonight. I was fine the whole night. I didn't feel alone. I got something out of the message. Then we were sitting around talking and it got brought up about how many pictures I post on instagram. And the remarks and comments started to fly! That makes it twice now this week that me posting to many pictures were brought up. There was so many emotions that were running through me. I was mad,upset, wanted to cry. I just said Fine if you don't like how many I post then unfollow me. I don't care. Later my sister was like oh Hannah we were just joking. But that was after the fact she saw how hurt I was. Okay.. Joking. You say it once. Not joking.. You keep on saying it. I mean when you have comments like oh yeah if you ever want to know what Hannah ate or is doing.. Check Instagram. Or oh I bet she couldn't go without a day without posting.. Oh she would just post all the pictures Saturday that she took Friday. Really... What does it matter how many pictures I take!? Is it hurting you? Nope. Didn't think so.
Anyways.. Last night I came home and took a shower and cried and prayed. You know, I hate being mad and upset with people. It kills me inside. I really had to ask God for His help. Because I could have went around and said well you talk to much about yourself. You blah blah blah. But God really helped me to keep my mouth shut. If I'm upset and need to deal with it, I just need to be alone for a while. In my house there's no chance of being alone and dealing with things on your own. Everyone had to put there input in. (and yea I'm still kind of dealing with what happened)
So this morning my daily bible verse is:Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. (Galatians 1:10 NIV)
I would say so weird but nothing is weird when you have God on your side! So instead this is a So God moment! So now I sit and say okay God. I get it! Your testing me to see who am I going to please! Like last night when I got home I deleted instagram off my phone. That was to get people's approval. If I'm doing things right and living my life for God then that's all that matters. In the bible it doesn't say anywhere that it's a sin to take so many photos. It doesn't say thy shall only post a photo a day. But it does say thy shall love their neighbor. And part of loving is understanding. Understanding someone means getting to know them. And if you see a comment you made hurt someone, don't keep making the same comment. Know where they are coming from. I post so many pictures for a certain reason. No know has to know why I do what I do. They just have to know that everything I do is for a reason. There is always a madness to my methods. Lol
Oh and thank you to my two friends who didn't join in the bashing Hannah last night and who said they liked my photos. I love you! :)
Key points:
Seek God's approval and not men.
Don't be a people pleaser.
Always pray.
Clam down before you speak.
Don't change yourself to get humans approval, if you do something for a reason and it's not hurting God or you, your fine. :)
LOVE everyone for who they are. :)
Craziness and all. ;)
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
These past weeks I've been dealing with people telling me two things 1:I talk to much.2: I take to many pictures. Me being the people pleaser I am took it to heart. I don't want people to think I'm annoying. It's been bugging me for awhile. Last night everyone was like yeah you do take a lot of pictures. I was annoyed by the comments and was just like whatever. It really got me in a bad mood though. I had to really go to God and ask for His help. Because my flesh was weak and I wanted to go off on some people. Lol I learned though that this is how God made me. So what if I talk to much. If you don't like it, don't be my friend. So what if I want to capture God's beautiful works. If you don't like it, stop following my pictures. Lol. A wise friend of mine said this and it's perfect for this blog post: Don't worry about what others may think, don't assume either. My friend and I was talking about a different subject but what they said really hit home with me. Because lately I've been caring what other people think. In life we shouldn't care. The way I look at it is does my talking bring glory to God? Or doesn't it. And same thing with my pictures. We shouldn't care what others think. We should only care what God thinks. Plain and simple. Do the best you can do for God. Don't worry about what people think.
I'm grateful and blessed for my wonderful friends. The ones who love me for who I am. Although at times I know a pain in the butt and crazy. Your all are wonderful and I deeply love each one of you guys! For the Godly wisdom and love you all speak into my life. :) I hope I'm a good friend to you all.
I'm grateful and blessed for my wonderful friends. The ones who love me for who I am. Although at times I know a pain in the butt and crazy. Your all are wonderful and I deeply love each one of you guys! For the Godly wisdom and love you all speak into my life. :) I hope I'm a good friend to you all.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Life is a Puzzle
Life is a puzzle
Right now I feel like my life is a puzzle. A huge puzzle at that! Lol as I just put together a puzzle it reminded me of my life. But in my life, God is putting together my puzzle. It starts with this verse:"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,before you were born I set you apart;I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." (Jeremiah 1:5 NIV)
God created us and isn't just going to create you and leave you.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV)
What I really want to focus on is trusting God enough to say your will Lord not mine. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV) I know people who get engaged and then break it off. They will say oh it's the Lords will but really it's their own. When it's the Lords will you will know. We have to take our own wants out of our life's and put Gods in. Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4 NIV)
That's a promise right there!! If we delight (1 : a high degree of gratification : joy; also : extreme satisfaction
2 : something that gives great pleasure) Ourselves in the Lord He WILL give us our hearts desires.
I think God places desires on our hearts. But He's testing us to see what we do. Do we delight in Him? I love God so much. I delight in Him.
So the question is why are we scared of God's will? For me I'm scared.
Although God says:So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10 NIV)
There's a situation on my life where other people have controlled it to much. It's hard when the people is your family. I'm so much a family girl. I love my family. After the sixth grade I was around my family 24/7. But it's my life(well God's life) I have to do what God calls me to do. I can't wait to be a missionary. But my parents will/are going to have a hard time with that. But! I can't just let them control what God has in store for me. I'm a pawn in God's game. Not anyone els. With God controlling my moves. Yesterday a lady at church told me something God gave her when I was being prayed for. What she said was right on with my life. It made me have a knot in my stomach because I knew what I had to do... And I want to do it but scared of the outcome. But later that day after talking to someone I knew it was God's will. No doubt about it.
So yeah my life puzzle is CRAZY! But God guiding my steps.. It will be good crazy because my life is Gods.
The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand. (Psalm 37:23, 24 NIV)
Who's in control of your life?
A person's steps are directed by the Lord.How then can anyone understand their own way? (Proverbs 20:24 NIV)
In their hearts humans plan their course,but the Lord establishes their steps. (Proverbs 16:9 NIV)
Right now I feel like my life is a puzzle. A huge puzzle at that! Lol as I just put together a puzzle it reminded me of my life. But in my life, God is putting together my puzzle. It starts with this verse:"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,before you were born I set you apart;I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." (Jeremiah 1:5 NIV)
God created us and isn't just going to create you and leave you.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV)
What I really want to focus on is trusting God enough to say your will Lord not mine. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV) I know people who get engaged and then break it off. They will say oh it's the Lords will but really it's their own. When it's the Lords will you will know. We have to take our own wants out of our life's and put Gods in. Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4 NIV)
That's a promise right there!! If we delight (1 : a high degree of gratification : joy; also : extreme satisfaction
2 : something that gives great pleasure) Ourselves in the Lord He WILL give us our hearts desires.
I think God places desires on our hearts. But He's testing us to see what we do. Do we delight in Him? I love God so much. I delight in Him.
So the question is why are we scared of God's will? For me I'm scared.
Although God says:So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10 NIV)
There's a situation on my life where other people have controlled it to much. It's hard when the people is your family. I'm so much a family girl. I love my family. After the sixth grade I was around my family 24/7. But it's my life(well God's life) I have to do what God calls me to do. I can't wait to be a missionary. But my parents will/are going to have a hard time with that. But! I can't just let them control what God has in store for me. I'm a pawn in God's game. Not anyone els. With God controlling my moves. Yesterday a lady at church told me something God gave her when I was being prayed for. What she said was right on with my life. It made me have a knot in my stomach because I knew what I had to do... And I want to do it but scared of the outcome. But later that day after talking to someone I knew it was God's will. No doubt about it.
So yeah my life puzzle is CRAZY! But God guiding my steps.. It will be good crazy because my life is Gods.
The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand. (Psalm 37:23, 24 NIV)
Who's in control of your life?
A person's steps are directed by the Lord.How then can anyone understand their own way? (Proverbs 20:24 NIV)
In their hearts humans plan their course,but the Lord establishes their steps. (Proverbs 16:9 NIV)
Friday, August 10, 2012
SMALL Glimpse of my week...
Trust God.
Right now that's what my whole life is depending on. Trusting God.
I haven't wrote in a while. I started to write about how crazy my week has been but every time I deleted the post. If you know me you know my life verse is "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight. "(Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV) I don't know why I adopted that verse. A few years ago I did. But right now in my life that's what I'm holding onto. I even put trust God onto my nails. I'm stealing my friend's idea. When something is important they apply it everywhere in their life. Trusting God is very important."In you, Lord my God,I put my trust. "(Psalm 25:1 NIV) This week has been extremely hard for me. After having a dream that someone was trying to kill me Wednesday night,I was very jumpy yesterday. Everyone asked if I was okay and I said yes but really I wasn't. I was mad and frustrated with life. With my family. I was under attack. But what I didn't realize is that what I needed to do was just let go and trust God. I'm like God why can't I be.... And God says Trust me. I'm growing you to be prepared for your future. Last night at cell group I had a hard time. I'm the baby in the group. Four of the girls went to school together and the other is in college. I felt like a fish out of the water. They were sharing "remember when" stories. God says trust me I'll get you through it. It will help you. Your important and your not alone! I've been really under attack this week. Super bad. I hate the devil. Soooo much. Anything I can do to make him mad, I will. Trust me now. I will. he better watch out because this girl hates him and is mad at him.
Dear God your amazing. I love you so much!! I know your always with me and thank you for that. Even when I'm down, I know you are there. My hope and trust are in you! I put my trust in you and not in men. In Jesus Name Amen
Right now that's what my whole life is depending on. Trusting God.
I haven't wrote in a while. I started to write about how crazy my week has been but every time I deleted the post. If you know me you know my life verse is "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight. "(Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV) I don't know why I adopted that verse. A few years ago I did. But right now in my life that's what I'm holding onto. I even put trust God onto my nails. I'm stealing my friend's idea. When something is important they apply it everywhere in their life. Trusting God is very important."In you, Lord my God,I put my trust. "(Psalm 25:1 NIV) This week has been extremely hard for me. After having a dream that someone was trying to kill me Wednesday night,I was very jumpy yesterday. Everyone asked if I was okay and I said yes but really I wasn't. I was mad and frustrated with life. With my family. I was under attack. But what I didn't realize is that what I needed to do was just let go and trust God. I'm like God why can't I be.... And God says Trust me. I'm growing you to be prepared for your future. Last night at cell group I had a hard time. I'm the baby in the group. Four of the girls went to school together and the other is in college. I felt like a fish out of the water. They were sharing "remember when" stories. God says trust me I'll get you through it. It will help you. Your important and your not alone! I've been really under attack this week. Super bad. I hate the devil. Soooo much. Anything I can do to make him mad, I will. Trust me now. I will. he better watch out because this girl hates him and is mad at him.
Dear God your amazing. I love you so much!! I know your always with me and thank you for that. Even when I'm down, I know you are there. My hope and trust are in you! I put my trust in you and not in men. In Jesus Name Amen
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Self less
Hello my wonderful followers.
Today I learned to be self less instead of selfish. I've never been a selfish person at all. I've always been pretty much self less. Any one who knows me will know this. Lol I love my family and love my sister but sometimes she only cares about herself. Like today at lunch I was joking and said oh will you pay for mine? And she was like no you have your own money. I was like wow thanks. I told my mom this and she said she will pay me back what I spent. Lol and then we got home and my mom who was up all night taking care of my sick brother and dad wanted to take a nap. My sister on the other hand wanted to go to the mall. I was like wow. Really. I told my mom I would stay home so she could rest. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, (Philippians 2:3 NIV) in the Bible it talks strongly against being selfish. God wants us all to be humble and not selfish. He wasn't selfish when creating you and sending Jesus to die for us. If we love people which we should then we should love them enough to put away our selfish desires to help other people! Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you. (Matthew 5:42 NIV) Check out this promise God tells us in His word:God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. (Hebrews 6:10 NIV)
I think that verse sums it all up.
Be self less today! Be humble. :)
Today I learned to be self less instead of selfish. I've never been a selfish person at all. I've always been pretty much self less. Any one who knows me will know this. Lol I love my family and love my sister but sometimes she only cares about herself. Like today at lunch I was joking and said oh will you pay for mine? And she was like no you have your own money. I was like wow thanks. I told my mom this and she said she will pay me back what I spent. Lol and then we got home and my mom who was up all night taking care of my sick brother and dad wanted to take a nap. My sister on the other hand wanted to go to the mall. I was like wow. Really. I told my mom I would stay home so she could rest. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, (Philippians 2:3 NIV) in the Bible it talks strongly against being selfish. God wants us all to be humble and not selfish. He wasn't selfish when creating you and sending Jesus to die for us. If we love people which we should then we should love them enough to put away our selfish desires to help other people! Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you. (Matthew 5:42 NIV) Check out this promise God tells us in His word:God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. (Hebrews 6:10 NIV)
I think that verse sums it all up.
Be self less today! Be humble. :)
Friday, August 3, 2012
Don't understand
I honestly don't understand how any one can be mean to a child. No matter what age of "how bad" the kid is. A kid is a child of God and should be treated like it! Today in Walmart there was these two girls about the age of 5. The dad sat there and yelled at one of the girls. The poor baby started to cry and it broke my heart completely! The two girls were dirty and it made me sick. The parents both had the "I don't care.. " attitude all over their faces. The little girl looked at me and it was hard to smile at her knowing what she was probably feeling inside. I honesty just want to go over and hold her and comfort her. Don't get me wrong.. I believe in discipline when needed. But I also believe you should do everything in love. The little girl touched something her dad told her not too. He screamed at her hateful. I understand that kids at times can do horrible. But if your horrible to them that's not teaching them anything. I babysit my little cousin. She's 3 now. I love her to the moon and back.(like she says) The other day she hit me. I made her look at me in the eyes and say sorry and told her hitting isn't right. People always say I let her get by with two much. But I love her and feel bad for the poor child. She's bounced away from 4 different houses. Parents aren't together. But I do teach her what's right in wrong. For what she learns now is what she will hold onto. Same with us. What we learn is what we will hold onto. So the question is what are you learning? Is it Christ and living a life like He did? (your answer should be yes!!)
Okay so I know this post is everywhere here. More of me just going on and on but! There are a few points.
1:kids are from God. Teach them in the right ways.
2:it's our job to teach kids. No excuse.
3: love everyone !
4: learn more about God each day
5:God loves you so much :)
Okay so I know this post is everywhere here. More of me just going on and on but! There are a few points.
1:kids are from God. Teach them in the right ways.
2:it's our job to teach kids. No excuse.
3: love everyone !
4: learn more about God each day
5:God loves you so much :)
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