Monday, April 30, 2012

Your fearfully and wonderfully made!

As I sit here with my little cousin who's having a bad day I remember how we are fearfully and wonderfully made. This weekend at my encounter I was remind how highly God thinks of me. I would always get put down or I would always out myself down. And I have friends who do the same thing. I made sure I took a lot of notes and thought I would share them. In Psalms 139:14 it states how fearfully and wonderfully made we are. Gods awesome creation is me! And you! I'm a part of a huge picture that God Himself is painting! So are you! I'm worthy! Your worthy! My life wasn't a mistake! Neither was yours! God gave other people talents for you to enjoy. Don't envy. God made me how He wanted too! I'm perfect because He my Father made me! You can miss God's will by not seeing yourself as He does. DON'T TEAR YOURSELF DOWN. Hinders:1.false doctrine-remember who created you... The Almighty God! 2. Self rejection-DON'T PLAY OFF REJECTION! 3. Comparing yourself to others.
My testimony on this subject:
As a girl its hard to not compare myself to others. There's always someone who I think is prettier,smarter,more gifted then me. I used to let other people's hurtful words sink in. Words like your dumb, stupid,not good enough, can't talk right and ugly sink in. The power of life and death is in your tounge. If you confess your stupid,you will be. We have great power we don't even know. But! If you claim your smart, you will be. For the longest time I was claiming all these lies of the enemy. At one point they started to sink in. Which is probably way I seeked love from boys. When do we say enough is enough? Some people think it's at there breaking point. Where they just can't have enough and some people even take their own lifes. The devil will push you to that point if you allow him. But I'm here to tell you,you don't have to allow him! We MUST grab ahold of this: My Father God knit me together in my mom's womb! I'm not a mistake! I was made because HE LOVES ME THAT MUCH! He made me HOW HE WANTED TOO! He doesn't make junk! He makes BEAUTY! He gives me gifts that I need to be ALL HE WANTS ME TO BE! I will always be ACCEPTED BY GOD! ALWAYS LOVED BY GOD!
God's love. I would say it's amazing but it's an under statement by far! Amen! When we think we know God's love, He reveals His powerful mighty awesome love in a bigger way to us! Stop listening to the stupid lies of the devil today! he's a lier! When you know he's telling you a lie, rebuke it in the powerful name of Jesus right away. Don't allow the devil to plant seeds in your mind.
YOUR ARE WONDERFULLY AND FEARFULLY MADE. Check your tag, you were made in Heaven. He loves you and wants your love. Will you give Him your life and all your love today? He sent His only son to die for you. Beaten,bruised, Hung on a cross with nails driven in His hands and feet. He was a human. The pain is real. The blood is real. His love for us is real.

This song explains my life:D

Oh, hey, what a moment You have brought me to? Such a freedom I have found in You You're the healer who makes all things new, yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm not going back, I'm moving ahead Here to declare to You my past is over in You All things are made new, surrendered my life to Christ I'm moving, moving forward, oh

You have risen with all power in Your hands You have given me a second chance Hallelujah, hallelujah, yeah, yeah, yeah Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, oh

I'm not going back, I'm moving ahead Here to declare to You my past is over in You All things are made new, surrendered my life to Christ I'm moving

Not going back, moving ahead Here to declare to You, my past is over in You All things are made new, surrendered my life to Christ I'm moving, moving forward Said I'm moving forward, oh yeah

Singing You make all things new Yes, You make all things new and I will follow You forward, oh You make all things new You make all things new and I will follow You forward

You make all things new Yes, You make all things new and I will follow You forward You make all things new Yes, You make all things new and I will follow You forward

I will follow You forward, yeah, oh, oh

Friday, April 27, 2012

Today is the encounter! -Typo fixed..

I'm so excited it's finally friday! I pray that God gives me energy and rest today. I got home late last night. I still had to eat,clean,family prayer, shower, and pack. I also read some of the Bible. I didn't go to bed til 12:40 and was up at 8. Oh well! I ready for today and this weekend. Last night I was so drawn to the Bible. I used to not be able to read alot of it because honestly it would make me sleepy. I had to pray every time I read it for God to keep me awake. And He does! Last night I was so drawn to it that I couldn't stop reading it. God showed me something and I'm praying about it now. When we are reading the Bible and get drawn to something it's not by accident. Pray about it. Find out more about it. There's a reason it was placed on your heart. The Bible is our manual for life so to speak. Everything we need to know for life, it's in the Bible. I encourage you to read the Bible for atleast 30mins today. Read with an open heart. Open mind. Let God show you something new today with His words. He loves you!

Speical thanks to my friend for letting my borrow their Bible! I love it! :)

Dear Father, Oh how holy you are. How holy your words are! It's the solid rock we stand on. Father I pray that today your words will sink into our hearts. I pray that we would live by your words and truely be your hands and feet. Father we are called to be like you and I pray that today we would grab ahold of that and apply it to our lifes. I thank you for my life and for everyones lifes. Your a perfect and holy God. You dont make mistakes, we were all put on the earth for a reason. You created all of us for your purpose. I pray that today you will show us your purpose for our lifes. Oh how great,oh how wonderful you are! Glory to you Father, forever and ever! In Jesus' Name I pray Amen! :) Have a wonderful and blessed day in the Lord. Let Him be your guide. Give everything to Him.

Encounter! Is! Today!

I'm so excited it's finally friday! I pray that God gives me energy
and rest today. I got home late last night. I still had to
eat,clean,family prayer, shower, and pack. I also read some of the
Bible. I didn't go to bed til 12:40 and was up at 8. Oh well! I ready
for today and this weekend. Last night I was so drawn to the Bible. I
used to not be able to read alot of it because honestly it would make
me sleepy. I had to pray every time I read it for God to keep me
awake. And He does! Last night I was so drawn to it that I couldn't
stop reading it. God showed me something and I'm praying about it now.
When we are reading the Bible and got drawn to something it's not by
accident. Pray about it. Find out more about it. There's a reason it
was placed on your heart. The Bible is our manual for life so to
speak. Everything we need to know for life, it's in the Bible. I
encourage you to read the Bible for atleast 30mins today. Read with an
open heart. Open mind. Let God show you something new today with His
words. He loves you!

Speical thanks to my friend for letting my borrow their Bible! I love
it! :)

Dear Father,
Oh how holy you are. How holy your words are! It's the solid rock we
stand on. Father I pray that today your words will sink into our
hearts. I pray that we would live by your words and truely be your
hands and feet. Father we are called to be like you and I pray that
today we would grab ahold of that and apply it to our lives. I thank
you for my life and for everyones lifes. Your a perfect and holy God.
You dont make mistakes, we were all put on the earth for a reason. You
created all of us for your purpose. I pray that today you will show us
your purpose for our lifes. Oh how great,oh how wonderful you are!
Glory to you Father, forever and ever!
In Jesus' Name I pray Amen!
:)
Have a wonderful and blessed day in the Lord. Let Him be your guide.
Give Him everything to Him.

Sent from my iPod touch:)

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Song Of The Day :) Building 429-Made For You

All my life I tried so hard to find me
The more I search, the less this all made sense
I'm finding now that this was not about me
You're all that will be standing in the end

Take me as I am
I've got nothing left to lose
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You

Take me as I am
I am Yours to use
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You
Made for You

You, oh God, are the consuming fire
So burn, burn, burn away what isn't true
Because I would never live for any other
I will keep my heart chasing after You

Take me as I am
I've got nothing left to lose
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You

Take me as I am
I am Yours to use
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You
Made for You

You are God, there is no other
I won't bow before another
I was made for, I was made for You
[x2]

Take me as I am
I've got nothing left to lose
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You

Take me as I am
I am Yours to use
I am lifting empty hands
'Cause I was made for You
Made for You

You are God, there is no other
I won't bow before another
I was made for, I was made for You
 
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AMEN! We were made for God and to do His work on earth!
You are God, there is no other
I won't bow before another
I was made for, I was made for You
 

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

:)

Psalm 40:8" I desire to do your will, O my God;your law is within my heart."
God works in amazing ways!
I've been praying about what to do for my future and this was my verse for today. And it so happens that I got an email about Kenya today. My church has a church over in Kenya. And I would like to be a part of it. My heart is set missions and I've been praying. God gives us signs in life. But a lot of times we are so busy with this world to see them. I've been fasting, this is my second day. Yesterday was harder then today by far. I've been praying that during this time God will honor me and I would have favor with Him. So far He has. He's been using me in ways I would never thought He would. With God anything is possible. Today I encourage you to clam down your busy mind and pray. Even if it's for 10 mins. If you give something up for God,He will honor you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Your heavenly Father loves you so much.  Proverbs 3:5-6"
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him,and He will make your paths straight." In the message Bible it says"Listen for God's voice in every where you go and everything you do." He wants to tell you something today. Block out this world and be still,wait to hear from Him.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Song of the day:) Hillsong:)

Search my heart and search my soul There is nothing else that I want more Shine Your light and show Your face In my life, Lord, have Your way, have Your way

Hear my cry and hear my prayer Draw me close, I know You're near Give me strength and give me grace To walk with You, Lord, all my days

So with all my heart and all my soul With all I am, Lord, I will follow You You took the cross, You took my shame Restored my life, now I live to worship You

Search my heart and search my soul There is nothing else that I want more

With all my heart and all my soul With all I am, Lord, I will follow You You took the cross, You took my shame Restored my life, Lord, I will follow You

Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing

Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing

With all my heart and all my soul With all I am, Lord, I will follow You You took the cross, You took my shame Restored my life, Lord, I will follow You

Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing

Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing Without You I am nothing

Search my heart and search my soul



Dear God, 
Without you I'm nothing. But with you I'm something :)With all my heart and all my soul With all I am, Lord, I will follow You You took the cross, You took my shame Restored my life, Lord, I will follow You. I love you so much Father. 

Sent from my iPod touch:) 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Song of the day...



Thisplace is trying to break my belief But my faith is biggerthan allI can see What I need is redemption What I need is for You for to put me back on my feet

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh oh

I swear I'm trying to give everything But I feel I'm falling,oh makeme believe What I need is resurrection What I need is for You to put me back on my feet

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh ohhh

If I could feel You shine Your perpetual light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If I could feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine Oh, Let me feel You shine

I lifttheknifeto thething I love most Praying You'll come so I can have both What I need is for You to touch me What I need is for You to be the thing that I need

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh ohhh

If I could feel You shine your perpetual light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If I could feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine God I need a Savior O come Generous King O God I need a Savior To come rescue me

Oh let me feel You shine Your magnificent light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If You let me feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine

Let me feel You shine Let me feel You shine



Sent from my iPod touch:)

Song of the day :)



Thisplace is trying to break my belief But my faith is biggerthan allI can see What I need is redemption What I need is for You for to put me back on my feet

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh oh

I swear I'm trying to give everything But I feel I'm falling,oh makeme believe What I need is resurrection What I need is for You to put me back on my feet

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh ohhh

If I could feel You shine Your perpetual light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If I could feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine Oh, Let me feel You shine

I lifttheknifeto thething I love most Praying You'll come so I can have both What I need is for You to touch me What I need is for You to be the thing that I need

Wha ah ooooh ooooh oooh Wha ah ooooh ooooh ooh ohhh

If I could feel You shine your perpetual light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If I could feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine God I need a Savior O come Generous King O God I need a Savior To come rescue me

Oh let me feel You shine Your magnificent light Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight If You let me feel You feel You shine Oh let me feel You shine So beautiful and warm So beautiful and bright Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky Oh let me feel You shine

Let me feel You shine Let me feel You shine


Sent from my iPod touch:) 

Monday, April 23, 2012

Psalms 139:14

Always be yourself&always let your light shine bright. People will love you for you. Never compare yourself to others.God made you the way you are. Perfect and beautiful in His eyes! <3

4days!:)

This Friday I will be leaving for an encounter weekend. I couldn't be more excited to go! I'm really excited to see what God has in store for me this weekend. I know its going to be amazing. Of course with me being so excited to go and really looking forward to it,the devil is going to try to stop me. He already has been with causing chaos with my friend and I. Trying to get me distracted from God. However us as Christian have the authority in Jesus' Name to cast the devil out of our lives. When something comes up in your life that you know isn't from God, right away rebuke it. Don't allow the devil to plant seeds in your head. As humans we are weak,but we have the Holy Spirit on our side that makes us strong! This past Friday I was weak. And I let things get planted in my head. I was mad and upset at someone. I was at the point I didn't want to think about them anymore because it hurt so bad. That was the devil just trying to stop something great. I'm going to start a fast this week. I'll start it tomorrow, still asking God what kind to do. I really never ask for prayer for myself, but this week I'm going to need it. Will you pray for me this week?
God loves you,and so do I. :)
Father God,
I love you so much. Your enough for me. I ask that you will make me strong this week. Dear God I want your will for my life. Nothing more. Nothing less. I pray that your will will be done. I ask that you will give us an answer if its your will or not. In your timing. Your amazing God! Your Holy oh so Holy!
In Jesus' Name Amen.

Just a thought for today:Learning to Be Content in Every Situation

The Bible teaches us to be content no matter what our circumstances may be. The apostle Paul wrote, "Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am."

Contentment is a decision to be happy with what you already have. Unfortunately, we usually learn to be content by living discontented lives for a long time and then finally saying, "Lord, I don't want to live this way any longer.' But it doesn't have to be that way.

You can choose to be content every day. This is worth more than all the material possessions you could possibly accumulate in a lifetime.

Paul made this clear when he wrote in 1 Timothy 6:6, "Godliness accompanied with contentment (that contentment which is a sense of inward sufficiency) is great and abundant gain."

What is sure to make us happy? Choosing contentment in the Lord, every day. Saying to God, "Lord, I only want what You want me to have," is the only way to have real peace and lasting happiness.

Prayer Starter: Lord, I only want what You want for me. Like the apostle Paul, I choose to be content in every circumstance.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Thannnkkks! :)

I must say I have the BEST Family and the BEST Church Family! Yesterday was my 18th birthday and it was a super busy day. I opened the door up to my little cousin holding balloons and she got me a rose pen. That made my day and it was super sweet!! Then I had to go out and pass out flyers. I walked 2 miles and lost 240 cals but gained it all back. Then I went to the office and changed and got ready for lunch. My aunt brought me a butterfly cupcake. And my bestfriend Hannah camed and ate lunch with us. Then we went shopping in town and took silly pictures as always. Although I was having a blast I was still sad inside. Really no one wished me a happy birthday. Besides my family there was three other people who did. Plus I was really tired. Wednesday night we went shopping and out to dinner so we didn't get back to late. When I got back to our office were parents were missing. They wouldn't contact me either so I was like wow this is great. I ended up crying lol. But then I found out they were getting things ready for my surprise birthday party. Which I was very surprised! And also that my bestfriend knew and didn't tell me about it. My dad cooked my favorite kind of pasta. My family was there,Pastor and his wife, cell group leader,my aunt, my bestfriend, my grandmas,and Mrs. Pattie. There was someone who I wished stayed but they didn't. Made me sad but I still had a good time. I could never be a "clubber" though I was ready to crash and it was only 8ish. By the end of the night I was stuffed with food and sweets. Then me,my little brother and bestfriend decided to have a random dance party/Congo line to the chipmunks happy birthday song. That was a blast but gave me a stomach ache. I would have to say the most funniest part is my mom forgot birthday candles for the cake. My poor mom and dad only had a couple hours to do everything. So we found 18 candles at the church and put it around the cake. I love my parents so much. I know my birthday wish will come true.<3 I felt love so much at the end of the night. I truly am blessed.

Father God,
I thank you for these wonderful 18 years you have given me. I look forward to my many years to come. I thank you for my life. Father I pray you will guide my steps for this year to come. I'm excited to see what you have in store for my life. I want your will God. Your enough for me Father. I thank you for my wonderful parents and wonder church members. I thank you for my friends and for always having my back. Father God I pray that you will be with me and my friendships. I pray that at will keep you the center of our friendship and your will will be done. Father God you have placed us in each other lives for a reason and I pray that you will show that reason more clearly. I pray for peace. For unstanding. For wisdom. For confidence. For love. For joy. For happiest that is found in You and You alone. For you will to be done in your timing. Father God forever and ever I will praise you. Forever and ever I will love you. Your amazing Father. I love you so much. In the most wonderful name, in Jesus' Name Amen.

Birthday Collage #3

I ended up with 13 birthday balloons. All the ones shown here were picked out by my daddy.:)


Monday, April 16, 2012

I would like to thank everyone who remember me in prayers friday. I'm sorry I'm not saying this sooner but it really meant a lot to me. My friends are awesome! Your amazing!! I love you all.:-) As child of Christ we are called to love people. In John 13:35 it says"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” Do we live up to this verse? I know at times its hard and may seem impossible to love but God says in Luke 1:37 "Nothing is impossible with God."I call myself a disciple and honestly I wasn't loving people like I am called too. It's hard for me to love people who have hurt me. But we hurt God all the time by sinning but God still loves us. If we have a relationship with Christ then we are apart of his body. We are one with God. If we put it that way then its much easier to love people. In life I really feel the calling to missions. I have a huge heart for kids and people. For me to love people other places I have to have love first for the people in my own town. God has been growing me in this area of my life. Recently one of my friends who have hurt me got in a wreck. I debated for a while to message him and ask if he was okay. I decided to put the past behind me and message him. He is okay,and making that first step wasn't that hard at all. Yesterday I went to the hospital after Church to visit some Church members who were in there. When we were visiting I found out someone eles who I knew and went to my church was in there. Me being a clean freaks daughter and a clean freak myself.. hospitals and I don't really go good together. You all may laugh at this part but oh well its good to laugh. So me and my aunt were visiting the lady (which that made her day so it was all worth it!) and my aunt sat down on the chair. So did I. But only in the edge because I was wearing a dress and didn't want my legs to touch the chair. Finally I just gave in and slide all the way back. Then when we left my aunt gave her a hug. And I was like oh no... I didn't want to be rude and not give her a hug. But she had open cuts and all. I did give her a hug and that was a huge step for this clean freak girl! After I thought, I made that step and God will protect me. I was sharing His love with her and making her day a little brighter. That's showing love for other people. Stepping out of your comfort zones and putting other people first. There are many ways we can show love for people. Let's look at what the Bible says about love: 1Jn 4:8 God is love, and anyone who doesn't love others has never known him. 1Jn 4:16 and are sure that God loves us. God is love. If we keep on loving others, we will stay one in our hearts with God, and he will stay one with us. Col 3:14 Love is more important than anything else. It is what ties everything completely together. 2Jn 1:6 Love means that we do what God tells us. And from the beginning, he told you to love him. 1Co 13:4 Love is kind and patient, never jealous, boastful, proud, or 1Co 13:5 rude. Love isn't selfish or quick tempered. It doesn't keep a record of wrongs that others do. 1Co 13:6 Love rejoices in the truth, but not in evil. 1Co 13:7 Love is always supportive, loyal, hopeful, and trusting. 1Co 13:8 Love never fails! Everyone who prophesies will stop, and unknown languages will no longer be spoken. All that we know will be forgotten. 1Co 13:13 For now there are faith, hope, and love. But of these three, the greatest is love. 1Co 16:14 Show love in everything you do. 1Pe 4:8 Most important of all, you must sincerely love each other, because love wipes away many sins. Pro 10:12 Hatred stirs up trouble; love overlooks the wrongs that others do. 1Co 14:1 Love should be your guide. Be eager to have the gifts that come from the Holy Spirit, especially the gift of prophecy. Eph 4:15 Love should always make us tell the truth. Then we will grow in every way and be more like Christ, the head Eph 4:16 of the body. Christ holds it together and makes all of its parts work perfectly, as it grows and becomes strong because of love. Pro 3:3 Let love and loyalty always show like a necklace, and write them in your mind. Pro 15:17 A simple meal with love is better than a feast where there is hatred. Psa 85:10 Love and loyalty will come together; goodness and peace will unite. Love yourself,love life but most important love God. If you do that then it will be easier to love people and have a servants heart. Hope everyone has a blessed day! :-) If you have any questions or comments, feel free to post. I would love feedback.:-)

Friday, April 13, 2012

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To everyone who's lost someone they love Long before it was their time You feel like the days you had were not enough When you said goodbye And to all of the people with burdens and pains Keepin' you back from your life You believe that there's nothing And there is no one who can make it right There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary And love for the broken hearts There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing He'll meet you wherever you are Cry out to Jesus Cry out to Jesus For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on Have lost all of their faith in love And they've done all they can to make it right again Still it's not enough For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains You try to give up but you come back again Just remember that you're not alone In your shame and your suffering There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary And love for the broken hearts There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing He'll meet you wherever you are Cry out to Jesus When you're lonely And it feels like the whole world is falling on you You just reach out You just cry out to Jesus Cry to Jesus To the widow who suffers from being alone Wipin' the tears from her eyes For the children around the world without a home Say a prayer tonight There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary And love for the broken hearts There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing That meets you wherever you are There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary And love for the broken hearts There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing That meets you wherever you are Cry out to Jesus Cry out to Jesus Cry out to Jesus Cry out to Jesus Today marks 5 years of my grandmas passing. I honestly woke up and prayed God will help my today. He has been! I've been strong today. Thank you God. This song Cry Out To Jesus by Thrid Day was the very first sing I listen to after she died. I did cry out to Jesus. Everytime I hear this song I cry. Cry baby? Yeah.. pretty much. Lol But who cares. When feel alone and empty we should be crying out to Jesus. HE IS THERE FOR US! No matter what! P.T.L too! These lines touches my heart every time." There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary And love for the broken hearts There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing That meets you wherever you are." It's so true. Father God, I thank you that my grandma isn't in anymore pain. We miss het dearly here on earth but she is in a much better place. I have faith that she's in heaven with you and I'm holding onto that. I thank you for sending your son to die for us that we may have ever lasting life! Father ever day give me the words to say to reach the lost. I thank you for letting my light shine and for your holy spirit! Thank you that people can see you in me. I'm blessed! Thank you for my family and my crazy friends. I love them all dearly. Please keep all of your children safe. In Jesus' Holy Wonderful Name Amen Proverbs 3: 5-6 Jer.33:3 John 13:35 Phil. 4:8

Monday, April 9, 2012

Easter collage:)

A bit of my Easter Sunday :)


Yesterday was Easter and my God is risen and alive! Thank you Father
for sending your Holy Son to die for us and our sins. I had the honor
to be in our easter play at church. There was about 256 people there
and two got saved. At the end it was all worth it! There was alot of
us that gave our cardboard testimonies and man was that powerful! We
gave it all away to God and now our lives will never be the same. I
praise and thank God for who I am now. A new child of God living for
Him and Him only. Our God is not dead Hes alive living on the inside
of each of us if we are Childern of God. Today I've been having alot
of mixed emotions. It's not easy for me to deal with my emotions. But
the awesome thing is I have a Amazing Father who says " cast all your
cares and worries on me!" (1Peter 5:7) Today I felt so overwhelmed I
had to stop and pray. The only thing I know how to do when I feel
helpless. I have to trust that God knows what's best for my life. And
He will take care of me. This song pretty much explains me right now:
Verse 1: Invading all my weakness You wrapped me up in grace The
worst of me succeeded by the best of You

Verse 2 My heart is overtaken My soul is overwhelmed The worst of me
succeeded by the best of You

Verse 3 My dreams have found their purpose My future in Your hands
This life would have no meaning if it weren't for You

(PreChorus So I lay me down For Kingdom come Steal all that is within
me Cause all I want in this world is more of You

Chorus And the less of me it is You Increasing as I fade away Your
light for all the world to see God It is You who breaks the chains It
is You who lights the way And everything I am cries out for You

Verse 4 Lord make my life transparent Your life in mine displayed And
let every earthly glory Go back to You

(PreChorus So I lay me down For Kingdom come Steal all that is within
me Cause all I want in this world Is more of You

Chorus And the less of me it is You Increasing as I fade away Your
light for all the world to see God It is You who breaks the chains It
is You who lights the way And everything I am cries out for You

The 13th will be 5 years that my grandma has died. Gosh how I miss
her. It's funny my mom does a griefshare group and I helped lead one
but my grandmas death is always hard on me. My grandma and I were very
close. I loved her to death and she loved me very much I know. I was
12 when she passed away. I would spend every free time I had over at
her house taking care of her. My faith in God slowly started to fade
away during the time of her death. I would cry out to God begging for
her to be healed. For one more day. Just one more. I remember one
night she called me into her room saying call you mom it's time. I
rushed out of her room in tears. She didn't die that night but I knew
she was going too soon. I remember I prayed and felt good about
everything and then the next morning I woke up and heard she passed. I
couldn't beleive it and thought it wasn't true. But it was. I was very
hurt and upset. My relationship with God was at a stand point. 6 days
later I turned 13. It was a very hard birthday and I knew then that
any birthday and holiday was forever changed. Around the age of 13 I
started to find love in boys. My real dad lefted when I was a baby and
I am very grateful for my step dad( who is my dad!) but there love
wasn't always there. I just wanted a way to escape and a way to feel
loved. At the age of 15 I started to become more invovoled with this
one boy. Thank God I didn't do anything in person with any boy. But
what I did was still as bad. A sin was a sin. After him I continued to
do the same thing with two other boys. Finally the light was shinned
on what I was doing about two years ago now. I remember my dad saying
"what do you think your grandma would think about this?" Hearing that
tore me apart. I was mad for a while at my dad for saying that. But I
knew she wouldn't like what I was doing. She would want the best.
After everything we started to go to a new church which we are still
at. I started to learn more and more about Gods love for me. I already
had asked forgiveness for what I did. But I still felt so uncleaned.
Then I realized I needed to forgive myself and really change. I was
still living with that bondage of what I had done. No matter how hard
I tried to not think about it,it was still there. Around this time my
mom had gone to an encounter (which I will be going at the end of this
month!!! :)) she met this lady who had about the same past as me. When
we went to the celebration service in vero I got to met this lady.
When it was time to pray I said God I really want to get prayed for
make a way... I looked right up and the lady just happen to be right
infront of me and no one was praying with her. I said God thank you
I'll go. Already I was in tears. I wanted to be freed so much from my
past. When I went up there the Holy Spirit was so powerful in that
place. That night I got freed! And my prayer language! I felt so
peaceful and free. I knew my past was no longer tieing me down. I felt
cleaned. I've been following God with everything in me. I know I
went through what I did to help young girls who are having trouble
with feeling loved. God loves you so much! He wants the best and only
best for your life. Last year I wrote a note to my grandma. I told her
how much I was sorry for who I was and I know that she's proud of who
I am now. I felt a sence of relief after writing it. In 10 days I will
be 18. It's been hard on my knowing my grandma isn't here for this big
day. All the big milestones in my life will always be hard. I try my
best to keep it together but I still cry every once in a while.
Standing infront of 256 people with my family sharing what God has
done was heart warming for me. My one side said "looking for love in
the world" My other side said "found love in God"
For everyone who's reading this: follow God with all of your heart.
Never let go of Him! And if you do, Hes always there for you! His love
for you never ends!