God gave me the desire to do missions. If there was a possibility to go now I would. I used to think about missions a lot and lately I haven't. But for some reason it's on my mind alot again. Like when I think I can't stand this town I'm reminded that soon I wont be in this town. Or thinking about waking up in Africa,Asia, and everywhere els! How amazing that feeling is going to be. I'm so excited I can't wait. To help and save babies,kids,teens,adults. That is going to bring me great joy! Lately I've been going through a lot of trails. I've been like ugh whyyy!? And I'm reminded it's to make me stronger and to be well prepared for the future. Like I always say "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!" I know I have a lot of growing to do still and Dear God I'm open. I'm yours. Grow me mold me into what you want me to be. God I realize without you I'm nothing. I'm putting my walls down. Each day I'm fighting hard for things in my life. I'm going to be so glad that day when I don't have too. But each day I'm proving who I really am.  God promises us He won't give us to much that we can't handle. And I thank you Father for that promise. Father if there one thing I ask it's that the desire you placed on my heart,that one that is so speical, would come true in your timing. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. (John 15:7) I thank you for given me that verse. You gave it to me at the encounter. I will never forget it. God I place my life in your arms. I know you will take care of me. You have so far. My trust and hope is in you! I love you so much Father. Your amazing. :)