Hello again.. 
I haven't been writing a lot lately. I just haven't been in the greatest mood. Been under attack by everything this week. For some stupid reason instead of realizing the attack and rebuking it right away, I let it eat at me. Until I knew I couldn't take it anymore! Maybe I'm a bit stubborn. Maybe I just wanted people to really care about me. But people really do if I realize it or not. If we realize it or not. There will always be someone who has your back 24/7. Jesus. My sweet wonderful Jesus. When are we going to learn Jesus is the only way. When are we going to learn Jesus is there for us? When are we going to learn if we trust Him.. Give Him our 100%.. He will help us? This week I've been feeling pretty sick. I was in a pity party state. I was in a no one cares state. I was in a don't care, leave me alone state. I would ask people to pray for me but really wouldn't pray for myself. Honestly I have NO clue why I was in this state. Maybe it's because I felt like I've fallen away from God some. Maybe it was because I was spending time watching tv then reading my Bible. Guys, if you feel like you should read your Bible there's a reason. If you feel the Holy Spirit tugging your heart too, there's a reason. I will have to say God is so loving. No matter how away you feel from Him, He's right there. He's watching you and protecting you. Because He loves you that much! He loves me that much. Tuesday night I was so tired of being sick. I prayed out my heart to be healed. Wednesday I woke up feeling fine again! PTL. It was time for me to get back on the right track. It was time to stop putting meaning less stuff over God. It was time to get serious again about God. It's so easy to get off track but once your on the right track, it's a much better track. What I love about God is that during this all, He still was using me to reach out to younger girls. PTL. How wonderful is that. It's like I was saying I'm not good enough God for you to use and He was saying Hannah yes you are! And shown me I was! There's nothing I love more than my God! :) 
I waited patiently for the Lord;

he turned to me and heard my cry. 

 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire; 

he set my feet on a rock 

and gave me a firm place to stand. 

 He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God. 

Many will see and fear 

and put their trust in the Lord.

 Blessed is the man

who makes the Lord his trust,

who does not look to the proud, 

to those who turn aside to false gods.

 Many, O Lord my God,

are the wonders you have done. 

The things you planned for us 

no one can recount to you; 

were I to speak and tell of them, 

they would be too many to declare. (Psalm 40:1-5 NIV84)